Now what do I do?
Last week my bosses gave me an iPad. This morning I walk in to find they’ve purchased a new 27 inch iMac to replace my old workstation. I guess it really has been a good first quarter for us.
After an overwhelming few years, I’m trying to sort through my project pile once again to find the things I want to do, that I have the time and passion to do. The problem with being blessed with a lot of ideas is sorting through them to find the ones that have a real value to me, and will have a real value to others.
Making notes on a new/old project idea this morning, I found myself typing “Rein in your ambitions. Make it small.” That’s not a natural concept, I think. When having ideas, it’s natural to go big. It is for me at least. But I’m not sure that’s the right approach, certainly not for every project. Certainly not for this one, which has already been shelved once because it wasn’t focused enough.
I’ve been thinking about responsibility a lot lately, and how I tend to avoid it. But something about typing this on my new iPad, while my data transfers from my old workstation to my giant, shiny iMac, makes me feel the tug of responsibility. The responsibility to create. Not because I have new toys, but because my bosses have invested in me.
I’m lucky. I’ve worked for what I have, but it still takes luck. Finding the right profession, the right job, the right spouse, the right friends, they are all a combination of work and luck. Sometimes I get lazy, sometimes I don’t appreciate how lucky I’ve been. But right now I know it, and right now, I feel a responsibility to respect it, and to pay it back.
